"just a bunch a 3's"

I often become fixated on a certain subject , animal, person , color etc . I am not a prepared or organized artist , as in I don’t think I really have ever started a painting with a completely thought out objective and when I have had to , I was certainly dreading it through it’s entirety. Anyone that has been in the studio while I was working on something I imagine would describe as me having a very spontaneous back and forth with the canvas .volitile, careless, quick etc but with full intent.